#13 ‘ShameLess’

ELEMENTARY

13.

‘ShameLess’

When God was creating a life for me, for some reason, understandable only in a far future, he didn’t give me a burden of shame.

The feeling of privacy and shame was always a curious topic to me. A sense of protection built-in people from the outside judgment and view. It can be associated with shyness and mistaken for integrity. For sure it is an easy way of dealing with the responsibility I thought. A responsibility to be the most honest version of oneself.

Ever since I was a little girl I had a feeling that someone was watching me, observing every move I made. It made me constantly aware of the consequence and impact of my manifestation. I remember liking that feeling, being aware of every move resonating until the end of time. The thought of every single gesture changing the course of my life and influencing the lives of others, led me to a feeling of being one with a big everything.

The observer made every gesture impregnated with the quality of awareness. It became an elegant responsibility, a pleasing satisfaction of doing the best I can, becoming one with him. Nothing to be ashamed of I thought back then. Growing is the only option…